Patience!

Today I had a follow up with my RE, Dr. T. The past few weeks I've been feeling really down and gloomy about our TTC situation and I was hoping to get some hope or at least a plan of action for the next few months. I've been especially occupied with deciding whether or not to have another surgery to fully remove my septum.

First off, Dr. T said that in his opinion I do not need a 2nd resection surgery on my septum. He said he will do it if I really want it, but he believes my uterus to be in an arcuate configuration now which is considered a "normal variant" of the uterine shape. He reminded me that the septum is not why we haven't gotten pregnant yet, but I'm still worried about miscarriages since I still have a higher risk for them. I'm worrying about a hypothetical situation, but that's what this whole TTC journey is about...what if I never have a baby? So I'm trying my hardest to focus on one thing at a time; let's just try to get pregnant and see how it goes.

I then asked him about IUI and what our chance would be if we went that route, and he said about 5-10% per cycle. Because of Daniel's low morphology he said an IUI would not increase our chances by very much.

Remember, only 2% of Daniel's sperm are "normal" but he has plenty of them, over 115 million total. Eggs will only allow normal sperm to penetrate them because they have special sensors that can tell if a sperm is defective. With so many abnormal sperm crowded around the egg, the strong healthy sperm have a hard time reaching it and therefore conception hasn't occurred. Dr. T said its like at a concert, if you are in the back it will be very hard making your way to the stage, you have to get past all those people first. Same goes with the sperm, there are just so many that are abnormal, they are blocking the path for the normal ones.

Dr. T recommends we wait and see if Daniel's weight loss makes a difference with the morphology. If not, we can continue trying naturally and hope it happens that way, or we can move forward with IVF (which is really expensive!)

So for now, we're just going to wait it out. Daniel has been working REALLY hard to lose weight and he's already lost 15 lbs! I'm so proud of him for working so hard and trying to get healthy. His next urology appointment is mid-June and hopefully I will be able to go with him since I tend to ask all of the tough questions :) I really hope we don't have to resort to IVF, but Dr. T assured me that I WILL be pregnant someday, it's just a matter of when. So for now, I just have to be patient! But man, that's easier said than done.